I just can't deal

This is gonna be difficult to discuss. Only one person outside of this knows about this situation...and I find it diffucult to discuss it with him.

I've never been in this position before.

Someone at work is sexually attracted to me.

At first, I thought it was the greatest thing ever. She's in a bad relationship, wanting to get out...I want a relationship with no games, bullshit, or drama. Seemed perfect.

At first, there was a lot of quiet flirting betwen her and I. Then it became a little more overt. We would discuss her situation and the surrounding details. I gave advice when asked, but always listened. I kept my desires at bay and tried to look at the situation realistically.

1. She has a live-in boyfriend
2. She's not super attractive
3. She has a lot of issues.

The boyfriend situation can be taken care of if she wants to. She can just kick him out and move on with her life. The attractiveness is also not a big issue, an issue, but not a BIG one. You SHOULD be attracted to the person you'd like to be with, but sometimes, their inner beauty is far superior to their outer beauty. A moderately attractive person can become much more attractive by the things they say and do...Whereas the opposite is also true. I've seen both.

(btw: you may think I'm contridicting myself from an earlier post. I'm not. There is some wiggle room here)

The last one bugs me. She has a LOT of issues. Many she's trying to deal with in therapy. But she also seems to be a magnet for Drama. Even when she doesn't want it, it shows up on her doorstep. She and I have had SO MANY convos about this...And she believes that she brings it on herself because of her "nice" nature. While that may be true, I still call bullshit. Most times, you put yourself in bad situations. You allow things to happen. The occasional mistake will happen. But repeated mistakes are your own fault.

It's partly because of this last one that I've really become disinterested in her. I don't want (or care) to listen to her drama. It's always the same convos that go nowhere. It's like banging my head against the wall. Repeatedly. I've gotten to the point where this shit has mostly turned me away from her.

But that's only part of it.

We've "kissed" twice.

Kissed is in quotes because they weren't full-blown kisses (heh...joke in my brain). They were the beginning stage of them and for one reason or another, they were halted. But to make things worse, we've often had convos about sex with each other. 99% of the time, initiated by her. They'll often be like this...

"I can picture me riding on top of you in that chair."
"How'd you like to bend me over and fuck me from behind?"
"I'll bet you've got a big dick."

I've been able to deal with most of this. I've also happily played along...but have been getting irritated by it more and more.

I'm irritated for one reason: It's TEASING! It's the tease of "You want this? I want it too. You want it? I want it. Want to? Let's go! Ooooooh, wait...I got that thing to go do. BYE!" I get this over and over and over and over again. What she really wants is to fulfill what she's not getting at home from her b/f. But without actually doing anything "wrong."

I recognized this a few weeks back...and I waited.

She came into my office last week and started up again. So I called her bluff. "Okay...Let's do it. When you get done, let's go down to your car an I'll fuck your brains out." She seemed excited, but pulled the "I would, but I gotta go...do...that thing."

I knew she wouldn't do it.

A couple days later, she started again...I re-doubled my efforts: "You wanna fuck after work? There's a hotel next door. You don't even need to stay the night. Just a couple hours. No? Ok, what works good for you then?"

She gave me this look that said..."Why are you asking me so forcefully? This is not part of my game."

Bluff called. Bagger-2, Her-0.

I thought that might take care of the problem.

Nope, she crossed the line today.

I have a soft chair in my office. She came and laid on it and said "I know what will clear up my face..." (She has bad acne that seems to have gotten worse) "...a hot load of your jizz all over it."

Jesus Christ...I just didn't know how to deal with it. It was unexpected, and honestly, DISGUSTING! Dirty talk is one thing...when the lights are low, you're both in the mood...

But in the office? With someone you're not even sleeping with!?!

Besides...That's not even dirty talk to me. It's just being filthy and it's extremely unladylike. I know that sounds lame-ass, but I just don't like it.

I'll put it this way:

Which turns you on more? When your s/o gets really close to your ear and says in a voice that is barely audible to even you "You have no idea how much I want you...right...now." Or, when your s/o is two or three feet away and loudly says "Hey c'mere...Fuck me in the ass."

There is NOTHING SEXY ABOUT THAT!

N.O.T.H.I.N.G.

So now...I'm completely turned off by her. I don't think there's any going back. I'd have to be really drunk and really horny at this point.

And even then...

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